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Week 2 of the New Year

January 13, 2017

I just read another ladies blog, outlining her difficult week maintaining her commitment to a healthy life. And I feel like it echo’s my week.
I could hide away and ignore how disappointed I am in myself – but in the interest of this saying…

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I won’t.

Yes my week has not gone to plan. And I hate that this continues to happen. BUT it does continue to happen – so perhaps I had better get used to it and work out a way around it.
I need to see the good in what I am doing, rather than beating myself up over ‘failure’ to be 100%.
My life is pretty hectic – I am busy. I can’t say no. My husband works shift-work. I make excuses.
So this is how my week went.

Friday:
Up early today to get the kids off to a 24 hr trip to the Riverland with their granny. Yippee.  I planned to spend the day writing a document for teaching jobs.  I struggled with this ALL.DAY. I probably wrote the same 200 words and deleted them 10x over. Which lead to  emotional eating of all the crap in the pantry.
I didn’t walk, as I thought I would/could go later {wrong plan}.
We then went out for an impromptu dinner with friends to a Thai restaurant. I made good choices, and felt good about eating out.

Saturday:

We ended up staying at our friends place due the lateness of the dinner and how far away we live from them, and even better we were able to get up and go to the beach!
But first I weighed in at WW for the first time since 12/11…. ouch! that I wasted so much time & money. I am a dick. And I had a gain of 3.3kg. Although, I felt was not all that bad for a 3 week holiday, chrissy and get-togethers over the new year.
J and I went for a 20 min walk {ouch my achilles} and then for a swim – so good!
By this time it was 10am, and I was starving, so we shared a pasty. Yum.
We did some birthday present shopping for our almost 10yr old – and also got a Bakers Delight Pizza. Sigh.

Sunday:

My family came over to do some shed sorting from recent flooding. Sausage rolls, pizza bread, cheese, bbq and birthday cake were on the menu. Ugh.
I did 10,000 steps and sweated a bucket load.

Monday:

I started out well, a 15 min walk, a good breakfast.
I didn’t track the rest of the day. I think it was that J went to work late in the day and I was over the it all. I got the sulks on.

Tuesday:

We had builders at our house all day today fixing up from the flooding in October. I also had my niece and nephew over. But I managed to walk, track and eat well.
Sadly, I gorged myself on lollies late at night while making lolly bags. I cannot be trusted around lollies!

Wednesday:

My daughters 10th Birthday – we took 5 kids to the local pools. I planned out my day, took my own food and snacked on a few hot chips, potato chips and a drink of fanta. Yum.
No walking today, but I did swim most of the day, making sure I was treading water and moving about.
I then raced around dropping them all home, drove bus home and left the kids with a half cooked meal to finish off while I raced out to a meeting.
By the time I got home I was STARVING – and munched on the girls leftovers.

Thursday (today):

I woke at 5am with a  shocker of a migraine. UGH. I managed to push down some cornflakes – but only so I could take some pain-killers and went back to bed. 3 hrs later I had J make me some toast with butter. More pain-killers – More sleep. Then I had toast again at 2pm when I finally felt well enough to get up.
I hate that I slept most of the day away, but it is nice to feel good again.I find the nausea is the worst, I wish I could just vomit and move on. I really dislike that I get migraines. They ruin a good day of life.

I did managed to eat a good dinner – eggplant and spinach curry with a steamed potato. Delicious.
The good thing about this week is that finally! my fridge and pantry is cleaned out. There is no more crappy food to eat in there. And the stuff we do have is hidden away, either just out of sight or actually hidden from me {read lollies – can.not.be.trusted!}
So tomorrow I have planned to do a weekly menu – something I used to do religiously. So back to it I go – I need to get more routine in my day, as lunch is my tough time and a plan of what to eat would really help.

So my week… laid out in its ugliness. But with some good points each day. I just need to make the balance better – more good then ugly each day and I will be right.
In one year I will have succeeded.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A few days later I actually begin…

January 5, 2017

Yep, my ‘new me’ was a bit of a false start.
Or perhaps I could call it an ‘ease in’ rather than a ‘cold turkey’ start.

I began well, but as the day wore on it got harder, and while I didn’t eat the amount crappy food like I would have in days of old {looking at you Dec 2016}…. I did mindlessly munch on some chips, had a few extra lolly snakes and a handful of shapes, all which I certainly did not plan to eat.
I did take my girls to the Movies {SING… it was excellent!}, and thankfully/ luckily I did not have to deal with the popcorn issue – as my 12yr old has braces and popcorn is a no-go due to the unsightly teeth sticking properties.  I took along above mentioned lolly snakes and shapes… and for a while sat between the girls, passing the foods back and forth, pinching a bit each time – but my mind was saying repeatedly…. you don’t need these… so I gave  my willpower muscle a bit of a stretch and asked one to swap seats with me, stating that it would be easier for them to eat if I was not in the middle.
I grabbed my pre-planned apple and had that instead.
And I felt better for that small achievement. For that is what they are at the beginning of weight loss… small achievements that stack up. The tricky thing at the beginning is that there are only a few – so the strength of the small achievements for use in future prevention is low… but you have to keep on making them regardless. Although I know  that in a week there will be more and more that have added up to be strong – and these will carry you through easily to the next test. The building of willpower muscle.

Did I meet my daily goals that I set? Kinda, sorta.

  • Clean out the fridge and pantry – get rid off/give away all the junk food, biscuits, chips, lollies, dips, cheeses and soft drink – partly, I threw out  and froze some things, but certainly not the level of having a garbage bag in the pantry and tossing stuff. 
  • Eat none of the above – I ate some of the above….
  • Eat good healthy foods – which includes vegetables, fruits and lean protein yes, although could and will get better.
  • Track on my WW app and stick to my daily points – again, partly, I think I stopped once I needed to add the ‘Shapes’ to it.Stupidly I got scared.
  • Drink 2lt of water – YES
  • Go for a 10 min walk – Nope.

Hmm… one fully completed goal – and lots of half done. I guess it was a definite ‘ease into it’ start.

Yesterday I got stuck into crochet early…new project!! and didn’t even hop on the computer for hours. But if I transferred all those daily goals to the next day… I did them all successfully bar the walk.
So good day all round. And one to keep building on.

Today I got up early and did the walk!!
Lying in bed at 6:10am wide awake, I mentally discussed with myself how stupid it was to be lying awake wondering if I should go for a walk… I wondered for over 17 mins….  I know I could have been thinking all this while I  WAS walking. So I got up, stumbled around find all my walking gear and set off.
My timer was set for 7 mins.
This was partly due to my really uncomfortable and sore achilles…. grrr…. and even more so due to the mindset that just getting out the door is the hardest part. I have written of this over and over again… pushing my butt out the door with only a minuscule time limit for a walk is enough to make it happen. What I know and try to keep secret from myself is that I will love it once I am out there and will keep going. I have proven that this works for me over and over again.
Here I wrote the very same thing….remind me again. and I am sure I could go through most of my previous blog entries and find it 100 more times.
It is something to remind myself of – something that works – something I need to continue to do to be successful.

Daily goals:

  • Track on the WW app – stick to daily points/achieve that blue dot!
  • Walk 10 mins – Happily I have already walked for 15mins
  • Use my hand weights – start a new routine found an easy one and did it as soon as I got back from my walk
  • Drink 2.5lt water
  • Do the pantry…
  • Spend some time with the girls doing fun things…

Today is HOT here – 37deg. Glad I got my butt up and walked already 🙂 I can be smug all day.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I’m one of ‘those’

January 3, 2017

New Year – Start Over.

I’m beginning it all again – my weight loss journey.

I have officially reached that point… where I feel like total crap.
My body is not working in equilibrium, my feet hurt, I’m stiff and sore when I get up in the morning or up off the couch, my clothes do not fit, I hate photo’s of myself, the self-hate talk is getting stronger, I’m unfit, unhealthy and full of excuses.

I have been trying for some years now to reverse the slow gaining of weight, but my busy life is always an easy excuse for mindless eating, buying shitty food and eating too many lollies. I have got to put a stop to it. I cannot keep gaining.

I have also stopped blogging about my weight loss or lack of… and I want to begin again. Personal accountability for literally the world to see.

So 2017 is the year.
And while I would have loved to have begun on Jan 1… well I used my busy life excuse once again – a house full of interstate guests and crappy food that was sitting on the table was too much to resist. My willpower muscle is weak at the moment.

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But.. the guests left this morning. So today I am going to start with the small steps needed to begin to rebuild my willpower muscle and my desire to be a healthy me.

Daily Goals:

  • Clean out the fridge and pantry – get rid off/give away all the junk food, biscuits, chips, lollies, dips, cheeses and soft drink.
  • Eat none of the above.
  • Eat good healthy foods – which includes vegetables, fruits and lean protein.
  • Track on my WW app and stick to my daily points
  • Drink 2lt of water.
  • Go for a 10 min walk.

A good start. And achievable. SMART goals.

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Right, I am off to begin the day.

It is a beautiful one!

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Teaching – one week in.

November 24, 2016

So I got my registration approved & informed the school in the afternoon {that had been calling me twice weekly to see if it had arrived} and they called me at 6am the very next day to come in and work!

Eeeeek.

My first day as a teacher was last Wednesday and since then I have worked 5 days. I am slowly getting used to the rhythms of the school, the ways of students and the life of a teacher.
I have the great advantage of attending the school, supervising the students to work through the detailed instructions left by their regular teacher, making sure they all stay safe throughout their lesson and sending them on their way. I have no marking, no lesson planning, no reports to write – other than letting the teacher know how the lesson went.
It is a nice way to work, especially at the beginning of my career, but I can see why teachers love to have their own class – building a strong relationship between yourself and students certainly helps in behaviour, students approach to actively working on and completion of school work – and of course attitudes towards the teacher.
More than once I have experienced the ‘your not our teacher’ attitude and behaviour. I feel I am handling  it all okay, but have learnt so much in 5 days and as always have a lot more I can and will learn.

But so far, I feel like I am going okay. The school seems happy to have me each day, and I am booked for the next 3 days already.
And I won’t hide this fact – being paid to do this work is certainly a delightful part of it.

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Health:

I am still on ‘light duties’ with my achilles tendinitis  – it is getting so much better – as in I can walk to school and back and it does not bother me. I have been going to see a physio every two weeks and been doing some strengthening exercises every 3-4 hours {or when it is possible to do so}.

 

 

 

I am.

November 14, 2016

I am a teacher.

I have received my registration, and I am cleared to work.

As a teacher.

Wow.

I think I need a moment to let that sink in.

 

I hate shopping.

November 9, 2016

Today went a lot better than yesterday. Thank goodness for that!

I did miss a few of my goals – such as drinking less water than I wanted –  and not doing 3 x 10 mins walking.
Instead I took my two girls clothes shopping – there was plenty of walking round and round and round. And then back and forth to the change rooms -> clothes racks for different sizes.
I did do 10,000 steps – most of them at the shops.
I actually hate clothes shopping – or any shopping. I am not a buyer of ‘things’. So taking the girls today is a big thing for me.

On a side note – I have one daughter who wants bikini’s, flowy tops, pastels and lace… and the other wants camo shorts, tops with slogans such as ‘yeah nah’ and tiger socks. Such a huge difference between the two of them. Both unique characters.

I also tracked all day. Keeping within my WW SP range, and only eating one biscuit, a milk coffee, instead of going nuts with the sugars. I feel much better for dropping the amount of sugar.

 

 

Snacking, Busy, Hurt.

November 8, 2016

My god I am eating and eating and eating. Lots of crazy snacking,  on whatever I can lay my hands on and get to my mouth.

Tomorrow I need to get into my pantry and do some re-arranging, and some chucking out.

Obviously I am kinda bored,  hence the snacking. I need to address that too.

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Although I am not all that bored, at times I am almost too busy to focus on what I am eating and am just grabbing and running.

This time of year is always a busy, we have major volunteer commitments within scouts, weddings, parties and bbq’s – all which leave me feeling very underwhelmed with my efforts to keep on an even keel with my eating.

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The other issue is an injury to my achilles. Achilles tendonitis. I have a lovely little lump on the back of my heel too. My {new} physio tells me that this injury takes a LONG time to heal.
Sigh.
He said that I will look back in 18 months time and think ‘gee this does take a long time to heal’. What??? 18mths?

This bloody injury has been building for a while, that I have known about anyway. I have been complaining at Bootcamp about my achilles for several months, and it turns out that I probably should have gone to get it looked at way back then, rather than leaving it until I could not walk. Even 10 metres of walking led to quite horrible hurting pain and making my walking gait very slow.
He said that the fact that I have no foot arches at all {and never have} is a major contributor – probably been building for a LONG LONG time and my achilles has finally given way, after struggling for many years – this I did not know.
The excess weight I am carry, must a contributor too, he never mentioned it – I just know it is.

So I am working on healing it. I have new orthotics in my shoes, and a 3 hourly calf/heel strengthening exercise, which I have been very diligent in keep up. I can now stand on that foot alone and on my toes…. Impossible 3 weeks ago!
I can also walk for 10-15 mins now without much pain. So I am pleased with all of this.
We are leaving for a 3 week holiday in 3 weeks time… I need my ankle to be the best it can be for this trip.

I will continue to stretch and strengthen it – I miss walking long distances so very much.

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So.
A plan for tomorrow.

  • Pack a lunch box for me – containing all that I need to eat for the day.
  • Write a small list of ‘distraction’ jobs.
  • Walk 3x for 10 min each time
  • Drink two water bottles of water.

 

 

 

 

 

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