Uni Essay – it can wait a moment….

Stealing a moment to come and say HI!

There are 3 weeks of Uni left, 1 week of my catering commitments left and a tighter jeans/tops etc to show for all the craziness!

I can.not.wait for it all to be done so I can concentrate of what I love to do – exercise, eat well, be organised and have my house clean!

On the weekend I went for a walk round my favourite scout campsite – and knew I could not walk up the hill endearingly known as ‘Cardiac Hill’.

When did I become so unfit?

Well when I over committed myself.

I am losing my hold on maintaining this extra 10kg I have gained and am creeping up towards 15..

aaaahhheeeeeeeeeeeeee!

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Its time to stop the excuses and get back out there, time to clean out the fridge and re-learn the word spelt with an N and an O….

 

Just a minute

Is all I feel like I say at the moment – to everyone… I have so much on – so much to do – and still a family of little ones to see to.

I feel pulled in all directions. So much that I am needing to make a separate calendar just for the next 2.5 weeks to get me through all that needs to be done, bought, thought about and attended.

One thing that definately gets on the bottom of the list during these crazy times is exercise… I just have to accept that I dont have a free 30mins to do anything. Scoff if you will, pffft if that pleases you, exclaim that EVERYONE has time…. and sure yes I do, but I am filling those free 30mins to sit and listen to my kids read, take them to a playground and hang out some washing.

I know no-one really cares if I exercise or not – that above paragraph was for me really – cutting myself some slack, and perhaps a little pep talk.

In 2.5weeks all this crazy-ness will be done and I will have a bit more breathing room.

 

But for now its back to the books, paperwork, shopping lists and menu plans

 

Positive day

First Assignment handed back today – a Distinction!

Another one handed in

{it was a toughie and took weeks of a group of us meeting up… which always creates issues on its own…}

First day of placement tomorrow

Scrapbooking on Friday

Two days with the girls over the weekend and nothing much planned {except for some study}

and now….

an early night in my warm bed with my book

Mapping the year out!

School holidays are over and Uni has begun again for the last half of the study period {or semester as some call it}, its nice to be back into a routine, but I did enjoy some well needed time off.

There are 7 weeks of this study period, and I know it will go super fast as I am super busy.

Starting this week on Thursday is the first of my four Uni placements in schools!! To have it occur so early in the degree was a surprise, but I like it! I have been placed in a school that is only 2km away so I plan on walking there. Its in a lower socioeconomic area so it will be challenging, interesting and above all I know fun! I am so looking forward to it.

Also in 3 weeks time is my annual scrap booking camp! I cant begin to tell you how keen I am to go on it – its my 10th year of attendance and I look forward to it each time! I have planned {several times…} to sit and get organised for it, but plans as they do change quickly round here, so this Friday is yet another day I have set aside to organise myself – I hope I can!!

As well as uni and camp, I still have my other volunteer Scouting Gang show Catering commitment! What a mouthful! Thankfully the show enters the theatre to start their show season in 2 weeks time, so by May 25th my commitment there will be over – although in saying that there is still plenty to do in the next 4 weeks!

Uni will end only a few weeks after that  – and I will have a 4 weeks off completely to myself and my family before I begin again, first with a two week intensive subject, then straight into the next study period – where I will only have 3 subjects to juggle….

….but I will have no catering committments!!!!!!!!!!!!  and thats a huge plus!

As soon as those 3 subjects are done I move into another intensive subject course for 3 weeks, which will take me up to Dec 20th!

How to lose 1 year in hurry… Accelerate your Uni degree with intensive courses

Anyway – in all that I need to keep on eating right, planning how I can do this is super important, but at times it is tougher than usual…. like right now… when things are a tad on the busy side.

Segue..

Having begun this new style of eating, or the LCD, I have found this last few weeks just too busy to concentrate on it. I have made changes, all the ones I outlined here, but I have not got the time to continue into the book any further.

So in saying all that I plan on carrying on these already made and adjusted to changes, but I will stop any fancy notion that I had in my head of completing the 8 weeks start to finish. I have to stop where I am and plateau for a while until the crazy times slide on by.

I do still intend on eating good healthy food, preferably ‘clean’ as it seems any other style of food just gives my stomach the complete sad’s now. And I do intend on exercising when I can, but I am placing no further pressure on this already full mind.

It makes me cranky to think I have to stop the week by week process, but then I think of the big picture{s}…

teaching….

and this – a car I wish to buy

and this…

and then I know its okay, there is plenty of time….

 

 

Feeling good

My eating has improved  – well really it could not have gotten any lower…

My mood has lifted and I feel healthy once again….

Thank goodness that each day is a new beginning!

and it all…

went downhill from there.

I wont go into details, I will spare you the awfulness of what I put into my mouth – while at the same time discussing with myself at what a terrible thing I am doing!!! But did I stop – nah I figured I had done so much damage now why bother cutting it off now. I already hated myself. may as well keep the hate going.

It all ended with a fun and amazing dinner with friends. great food, cold wine, decadent dessert!

and then I got to spend 4+  of those wee morning hours groaning in agony, with a belly the size of a mountain, lying propped up on pillows and a husband ready to head out to find Mylanta double strength at 4am.

Not my finest hour.

Not my finest way to finish a wonderful evening out.

Not my finest way to dedicate myself to healthy living.

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I move on, and begin again. A fresh start, a glass of lemon water, fruit, breakie muffin, soup, bread, schmeer of jam, warm salmon salad, a coffee and a few choc chips, a few marshmallows, a few marie biscuits. Sigh.

I move on and keep the again’s gainfully employed.

 

Day 9

Day 9! of the LCD…. wowsers how did I get this far in – BUSYNESS has led to time flying as per usual.

So how has it been going….. well….. not as good as I could be, but better than I was before I began it. Does that make sense?

The negatives:

I{gulp}  still have not read the whole book…. it get more and more difficult when the initial excitement wears off and normal life resumes, and there are large sections of multiple text books to read. Today however there has been a change of outing plans – due to illness and lotsa rain! so I intend on finding some time to sit and read it.

I have had some gatherings to attend the past few days, making it tough to control eating – Friday night the girls and I went to visit a sick friend so we took cheese, dip, bickies and chocolate – I ate it all and it was delish – I chose to eat, I chose to enjoy the moment and to not regret it and I wont, ever, as one day I will look back on that night with fondness….

Last night my niece had a pizza party birthday – I took my own meal and salad and I happily ate that,  I managed to avoid pizza and cake all for several hours… until it was bought back out for some late night munching….

I am still picking at bits and bobs. Not as much. But I am aware of it.

The positives:

I am still following all the rules I began with – no dairy, no white carbs etc. and am comfortable with that.

I am still eating good healthy food, lots of salad and veg and am comfortable with taking my own food to events. Its hard to look upon others eating all that good stuff – but I guess there are a lot of people in this world who watch others partake in what they cant – food, alcohol, children, drugs, a job, love….

I am feeling leaner – not sure about weight loss… but certainly leaner.

So where to from here…? Well I need to read the book, I need to up my commitment and stop the picking – I am thinking a goal/reward system, and I need to keep walking.