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October 16, 2014
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We are still missing our kitty cat – meggsy :( That lead I spoke about in the last post, well the cat we went to look at was so incredibly like her {maybe an Uncle or her dad??} that I was sure it was her when I saw her from across the road. Then when we got up close, the cats face was definitely different, more masculine, and the body was larger. Definitely not our cat. So now we just keep checking FB sites and called rescue places in hope…..

Uni  – I have just enrolled this morning for 2015’s subjects – only 4… and only doing one at time. It will be nice! I don’t begin now until Feb 11th next year, so once this placement is over on Nov 21st I will have 2.5 months off. So looking forward to it.
I only have 6 subjects left and I feel it – I am over writing academic words.

I had hair cut yesterday – as per usual I leave my hair to grow out way past it’s time-for-cutting date, and then the colour also look shit – so when I go in to hairdresser I normally feel so bloody awful and daggy that I go to extremes for the colour/cut……. and just say to the hairdresser – go your hardest. Meaning then, I never know what I will come out looking like. But then again, eh, it’s only hair and it will grow back think  and heavy like it normally does.

Eg: new colour and cut….

Lucy and I

From this….

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To this…

It is rather different…..

But I like it. It’s light in colour, and light in weight {I have thick hair and the hairdresser always has a great time with those thinning scissors!}

I am writing a Uni assignment today – so I had better get off here and begin.

Missing. Health. Uni. Ramble. Unload.

October 14, 2014

We have a missing kitty cat. :( And while I am not a huge animal fan, I have gotten used to her presence around the place. Her pitiful ‘mow’ when she is not able to get into a room/on a bed/out the back door fast! enough! We had an exciting lead this afternoon on ‘Lost pets of South Australia’ – with a cat sighting that looks remarkably like her….but according to the finders it was a male cat, and we have a female. Our cat is a ginger- called Meggsy {pretty original huh} and is a rarity to be ginger and female.

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Meggsy as a kitten.

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Full grown fluffy cat

The only other real issue that makes up think it is not our cat is that this cat has been sighted 14km’s away, up in the foothills above Adelaide – not sure how our cat could have gotten up there??!!?? Anyway – we have two very unhappy children who are missing their Meggsy. I hope she comes home soon.

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Life has settled back into what I call normal… me working 2.5 days a week and spending the rest of the week looking after my family, the house, and myself! It feels good and the family are happy – and so am I. Loving it!

Now that I have this time I have been able to get into a routine of exercise and have begun to look forward to it each day. I am walking, going to the gym, gardening and have even been for a bike ride!
This Lea is much nicer to be around – I like her, she can stay as long as she wants…lol.
Body-wise {and my shitty digestive system} – while I am moving more I still have yet to lose any weight, but meh to that. I feel better, I am happier and can feel my fitness improving. Which after all is all I wish for. I have settled into the fact that this is my body/life – shitty digestion and all – and I can only do what I can.
On our bike ride the other day I was discussing with J the next few years regarding Uni and timetables, and what I wanted and what others were expecting of me, and the outcomes for jobs and for me of this degree. It was a good chat and I feel good for finally verbalising what I really feel – and have it validated that it is okay to feel this way.

You see, my Uni degree is not only for me to secure employment. Nuh-uh. Years ago in the beginning of 2010 {5 freaking years!!} when I first began studying at Uni – it was about finally, finally! being able to do something for me that was not baby related, or little kid related, or that revolved around my husbands job/hours – but was to enable me to head out in the world and not only meet new people, but to do something new and exciting and prove to the world {me, my dad, the ugly butt-head who almost ruined my family} that I was someone. Someone who could do this stuff, who had a brain {which I just typed wrong 3 times……sigh} and not just be a mum. So I began that degree and found that I hated one subject – chemistry – so very much that I gave the whole thing up. Then when I began this next degree, I thought that I wanted to do it just for working and a job and a career. But as time goes on I am finding that it is really (for me) more about the getting to the end, or the journey if you will, than the job.

I like my life/work/uni balance that I have right now, just enough of each, keeping me interested, active, cashed up, out in the community, working my brain, meeting people and happy – its right for me, the kids and my husband and I hope I can continue to keep it just so.
So in saying that the next few years for me in regards to Uni will be a LOT slower. I only have 6 subjects left, and while some would say just do them and get it over with…. nope, I aim to get them done in 2 years (4 in 2015, and 2 in 2016), and at the same time will enjoy being with my children as they grow into tweens and progress towards high school; spend time with J and allow his new career to grow; and for me to have time to keep fit and active.
You see, getting a teaching job is not the most important thing on my life’s list…it’s up there {actually not as high as that either :) }... but at this time in our lives it’s lower than the kids and J {and me} – and really they are most important to me.
And fuck me that is so good to say.
It is not something I feel I can say to many people – it either disappoints them, or makes them tell me {or have that look}  that I am not cut out for teaching if I don’t have a burning desire to get out there and teach, and change, and be empowering.

but I am okay with only telling those that count…. like you 3 still reading this almost-dead-but-back-from-the-grave blog.

So in saying all that I hope then that I will be graduating in early 2017 {and hopefully dodge the masters degree that is being reported to be coming shortly to Australian teachers}.

It’s good to have it out there, verbalised and validated that what I am doing is okay. I will not burn at the stake for feeling these things. I just won’t mention to those die hards at Uni……….. there are a few.

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Anyway, this ramble got longer than I anticipated. And its late.
And that cat sighting lead has gotten hot again.
We are heading up there in the morning to double check that it is not our cat, as it looks so damn like her – see….

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This is the cat that has been found…..

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This is the picture we put on the site….

See how close they look….I know if we don’t go and check it with our own eyes we will forever wonder and fret that we didn’t try harder….

I will keep you posted…..

Small or Monumental?

September 18, 2014

Yesterday began well, I had a banana smoothie for breakfast and resisted temptation when out with other Uni students when they were buying lunch – choosing to eat my corn couscous and chicken salad that I had per-prepared. I snacked on some rice snacks, strawberries and a homemade raspberry wheat free muffin, and I felt GOOD on the bus home.

And then I got home.

Where on opening the pantry the last 6 squares of a block of chocolate jumped out and yelled eat me, and a container with a few Liquorice allsorts in it.. and then we went to the pub for tea – Jon had a chicken scallopine and I had the S&P squid… which we swapped at half time. Delicious. But I ended the day less positive than I began it.

Suffice to say, I am ‘feeling’ that food today – You are what you eat. Bleugh.

So today I am again starting out well, GF/Wheat free cereal, lactose free yogurt and milk and strawberries. I plan to have an egg sandwich later on, and the girls have requested a picnic in the park dinner {Spring is HERE!!!!} – chicken and salad. And I plan on ending the day as well I have begun.

A small step or a monumental one? Both I think.

Love life

September 16, 2014

Time has moved on, as I knew it would, and my commitment level has dropped off. I have far more free time than I have had for a while and I am loving it already. Tonight I even managed to go for a WALK!

The Guide Gang Show finished with great success, and while I hated being ‘trapped’ some of the weeks, in the end I really enjoyed being part of the gang and being able to ‘give back’ to a great group of young girls/woman. Volunteering is so worth while.

Uni is slowing right down –  it is Week 8 of this semester. I had an assignment due today {passed with another D+ yah!} and two more question/answer activities in another subject to finish off before the end of next week {I have allocated this Thursday to get them done} and have three more lectures to attend at a TAFE. Then all I have left is a 4 week placement {October – November} and an assignment due on November 26th. Easy.

Work has changed too as the lady that works with mum and I is back from her trip to Europe and is back to work all day Wednesday’s and the evenings on Thursday. So I will have much more time to be with my family and exercise… but I will be a little poorer due to less working hours :( but I am much happier with the alternative.

Tomorrow evening I plan on walking again – just an easy 30 mins, and on Thursday I finally have time to go to the gym again! I know, I have paid each week and never attended – which is an ultimate hate of mine. But I was so trapped in what i was doing, there just seemed no time to get there.

Also what sucks is that I am so very unfit now, which is a gross feeling. It’s hard to get up off the floor, climbing steps makes me puffed out and embarrassed and I have a ‘ball’ again in my gut making it hard to do up shoes.
My diet has taken a turn for the worst too – starting work at 9am, finishing at 5:30pm, going straight to the theatre for 6pm and getting home at 11pm…..6 days of last week…. certainly took its toll.
I need to eat better food and drink much more water.
And I plan to do just that tomorrow. I would like to hope that I do not get that busy again {although it may well happen} but I am going to work on saying no to stuff, as my health and fitness is a high priority to me and I can’t keep doing this. I am getting larger and larger each time and it cuts deep to see and feel it happening.

Time to begin to enjoy being me again, enjoy time with my kids and husband and getting back to a life I love!

Day off wtih a Migraine = suckful.

September 16, 2014

I wrote this on August 22nd……

A day off and I have a bit of free time to write again.
This morning I woke with a migraine. Not a thumping one felt when I gained consciousness, but my other style of migraine {how lucky to have two different ones….:/ } as I stumbled to the bathroom I noticed that my vision was weird and a few seconds later registered that my flashy black and white aura had made itself at home.

My aura’s look like this around the edge of my eyes and go in about half way of my vision – very distracting and unnerving. I hopped back into bed with an ice pack on my neck, a eye mask to dull the light and a coupe of neurofen.

On waking an hour later and stumbling around to get the kids sorted for school I noticed the glorious day outside and knew in an instant that I had to be out in it, walk in it, be feeling it and breathing it in.

The season is in change – and that makes me so very very happy.

So I decided to walk for an hour. I don’t have much time these days for long walks, but today, I made time. And it was lovely, therapeutic and amazingly glorious.
I have been so super busy that I had momentarily forgotten how much I love walking – with a warm sun on me. I still felt rotten, but the day was too nice to let a pesky migraine get the better of me.

 

 

I miss here…..

September 6, 2014

I miss my blog, I miss having time each day to write something – spilling my ever revolving thoughts onto ‘paper’.

I miss being outside. I miss having a clean house.

I miss my family. I miss the life I love.

Heard this before??? {I would do linky links…but time I do not have to look….}

OH yes – I am Week 7 of Uni…… 3 subjects {last time I EVER do that many at once ….I swear}, a Gang Show commitment, 30+ hrs at work a week, a new way of eating, a family, a husband studying for a big exam and a home.

It’s piling up.

But soon it will slowly stop until I am free. CAN NOT WAIT!

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Did I ever mention my new way of eating… low FODMAP diet? Ah I must get to that….
Anyway it has been the most consistent thing to stop my severe heartburn {other than medication – which I refuse to take for the rest of my life….} the bloating and general uncomfortableness. It is not easy at times, and I don’t always follow it to the letter, but mostly it makes my esophagus happy – which makes my days easier – and ultimately me happy.

So for now, while I have not got time to carry on with the full elimination diet and challenges, I will eat mostly FODMAP free and comfortable.

Oh and one funny thing I have noticed – how strong is onion to taste in foods!! I cannot have it, or garlic and phew they are strong! hahahahahaha

Uni life for an adult = friday night in front of the computer….

August 22, 2014

Reading, Reading, Reading.

I need to have a literature review written by 11pm Monday.
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and back to reading.

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